When I was younger I never liked to be alone. I always wanted people around me. Looking back, was that because I didn’t like myself enough to be alone with just me or fear of what I might find? Or, because like Jacob in Genesis 32:22 through 30, it’s when you are alone that you wrestle most with God? And, like Jacob, I’ve come to see it’s a wrestling match you can’t lose if you don’t let go until God blesses you.
God teaches us in the day-to-day activities of life, if we’ll stop long enough to watch and listen, but it’s the alone time where the relationship starts and develops as we talk with and listen to God speak. Jesus came to save those who knew they were sick spiritually so, not surprisingly, it’s our sicknesses /weaknesses where the wrestling with God begins. Just as most of us talk most about our weaknesses, and not our strengths, perhaps that’s because, subconsciously, we want to be made whole. And being made whole starts with Jesus who is the way, the only way, the truth, and the life.
Then it dawns on you one day that you’ve come full circle, and your alone time is what you look forward to the most.